Today, I received news that surprisingly didnt shock me.. i gt an acquaintance friend who committed suicide. Haven seen him for many years, but he gave me the impression of someone cheerful and fun loving. Sigh.. I will probably be going to his wake and meanwhile catch up wif some of my friends whom i have lost touched with...
Why is life so fragile? People are under lots of stress today...relationships, finances, career, family.. I believe everyone, somehow or other have contemplated suicide...to be freed of such pressures in life. So have I, but i quickly pushed them away...probably i m afraid and more possibly i m looking forward to my future and embracing it with open arms. Though i wonder what's there to look forward to now...? No worries yea, I have zero intention of suicide...
My gut feeling is that it was caused by relationships, speaking of which...sadly, it's something i cant handle at all. As we are desensitized by the touching idol love dramas and wonderous movie couples, we continue to build great hopes in our relationships...of which very often do not meet our expectations. This is probably why 40% of graduate students over 30 remain unmarried ba. (nt so sure abt the accuracy of the statistics).
My vision of love is simple. Holding hands by the beach, confiding feelings with one another, even just talking on the phone exemplifies the emotions boiling within... Yet, feelings are just so illusive, so unpredictable, everchanging..that even I myself cannot comprehend this wierd thing called feeling... Is love possessive? Do you nid to possess the person you love? Is love replicative...do u nid someone to love you before you can love her back? What's love... Is missing or caring for someone love? Does hurting someone means you dun love her anymore? Does love means you can overlook the other person's flaws... I guess I no longer have the right to discuss this anymore... I am confused...
Received a msg today, really happy to see it that I dunno how to reply. Thanks.
Exams are round the corner...in the face of all these, it doesnt even seem impt anymore... I just wanna get it over with asap...still approximately 2 more months to go... sigh.. its gonna be difficult..
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Today, I received news that surprisingly didnt shock me.. i gt an acquaintance friend who committed suicide. Haven seen him for many years, but he gave me the impression of someone cheerful and fun loving. Sigh.. I will probably be going to his wake and meanwhile catch up wif some of my friends whom i have lost touched with...
Why is life so fragile? People are under lots of stress today...relationships, finances, career, family.. I believe everyone, somehow or other have contemplated suicide...to be freed of such pressures in life. So have I, but i quickly pushed them away...probably i m afraid and more possibly i m looking forward to my future and embracing it with open arms. Though i wonder what's there to look forward to now...? No worries yea, I have zero intention of suicide...
My gut feeling is that it was caused by relationships, speaking of which...sadly, it's something i cant handle at all. As we are desensitized by the touching idol love dramas and wonderous movie couples, we continue to build great hopes in our relationships...of which very often do not meet our expectations. This is probably why 40% of graduate students over 30 remain unmarried ba. (nt so sure abt the accuracy of the statistics).
My vision of love is simple. Holding hands by the beach, confiding feelings with one another, even just talking on the phone exemplifies the emotions boiling within... Yet, feelings are just so illusive, so unpredictable, everchanging..that even I myself cannot comprehend this wierd thing called feeling... Is love possessive? Do you nid to possess the person you love? Is love replicative...do u nid someone to love you before you can love her back? What's love... Is missing or caring for someone love? Does hurting someone means you dun love her anymore? Does love means you can overlook the other person's flaws... I guess I no longer have the right to discuss this anymore... I am confused...
Received a msg today, really happy to see it that I dunno how to reply. Thanks.
Exams are round the corner...in the face of all these, it doesnt even seem impt anymore... I just wanna get it over with asap...still approximately 2 more months to go... sigh.. its gonna be difficult..