Haven't been writing down my thoughts recently..cos I am lazy and unmotivated ba. That's me! Wonder if anyone still visit here..or has it evolved into a hidden place for me to pour out my sorrows. Perhaps I could try to jot down some of my feelings before I lose them...before I wipe them out from my memories...
Lots had happened for the past week. I hurt a person who is so pure, so lovely, so devoted to me... Love is something that could not be quantify..but it really dawned on me that my feelings have been true, even till now, contrary to wat she had suggested. Have been thinking much of our memories and always, they brought tears to my eyes. =(
Although I have been worried and concern over her... I have decided not to msg/msn her even if it's hard to control (opening the chatbox & closing it many times: empty)...after all I would prefer to be left alone if I m her... But it really hurts that someone so close to me has become a stranger overnight... the promise of being bestest of frens will probably nvr materialise... Maybe if u chance upon this one day, you will know that i still care...
It kinda seems that my feelings are contradictory..yet i wonder why this is so.. Feelings and love have been true.. yet i chose to disrupt them... Maybe subconsciously I believe that this won't work out ba. Hmm, wonder who really controls my subconscious? I guess it wont be easy for us... but I wouldn't want to hurt her anymore. It also hurts tat she immediately move her blog after knowing that i read them.. when tat's the only way I can update myself on her life.. Afterall, she's the real victim.. I shouldn't even complain yea.. Sorry! Thx for yr last posting..if it was meant for me.. It had been a wonderful journey, even when the end hurts so much...
Had a chat with a mutual friend... she said something that touched my innermost feelings... feelings that I was unable to explore or understand.. Yet, it will continue to remain so... because I will never find out.. or I guess i never will...
Take care yea.. I believe time will slowly erase yr memories of me...till one day it doesnt exist anymore... I also believe that real love will soon descend upon you... cos you deserved it more than me...
My feelings are still mixed and persplexed... Hope they will subside soon...leaving behind beautiful receding waves and precious debris.. I believe...
"There can be miracles, when you believe.."
树欲静而风不止，心欲平而浪不息。。。
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Haven't been writing down my thoughts recently..cos I am lazy and unmotivated ba. That's me! Wonder if anyone still visit here..or has it evolved into a hidden place for me to pour out my sorrows. Perhaps I could try to jot down some of my feelings before I lose them...before I wipe them out from my memories...
Lots had happened for the past week. I hurt a person who is so pure, so lovely, so devoted to me... Love is something that could not be quantify..but it really dawned on me that my feelings have been true, even till now, contrary to wat she had suggested. Have been thinking much of our memories and always, they brought tears to my eyes. =(
Although I have been worried and concern over her... I have decided not to msg/msn her even if it's hard to control (opening the chatbox & closing it many times: empty)...after all I would prefer to be left alone if I m her... But it really hurts that someone so close to me has become a stranger overnight... the promise of being bestest of frens will probably nvr materialise... Maybe if u chance upon this one day, you will know that i still care...
It kinda seems that my feelings are contradictory..yet i wonder why this is so.. Feelings and love have been true.. yet i chose to disrupt them... Maybe subconsciously I believe that this won't work out ba. Hmm, wonder who really controls my subconscious? I guess it wont be easy for us... but I wouldn't want to hurt her anymore. It also hurts tat she immediately move her blog after knowing that i read them.. when tat's the only way I can update myself on her life.. Afterall, she's the real victim.. I shouldn't even complain yea.. Sorry! Thx for yr last posting..if it was meant for me.. It had been a wonderful journey, even when the end hurts so much...
Had a chat with a mutual friend... she said something that touched my innermost feelings... feelings that I was unable to explore or understand.. Yet, it will continue to remain so... because I will never find out.. or I guess i never will...
Take care yea.. I believe time will slowly erase yr memories of me...till one day it doesnt exist anymore... I also believe that real love will soon descend upon you... cos you deserved it more than me...
My feelings are still mixed and persplexed... Hope they will subside soon...leaving behind beautiful receding waves and precious debris.. I believe...
"There can be miracles, when you believe.."
树欲静而风不止，心欲平而浪不息。。。